Wow is it really that late????

So here I am at work. 1am and I have nothing to do but sit here and talk to you. I want to warn you that I will come off a little cynical in my blogs. It is just me. I am a natural red head with a pentchant for saying what I am thinking.....usually to my detriment. But I figure, at least you never have to wonder where you stand with me, and you always know what I am thinking. Besides, this is my Blog....if you don't like it...stop reading it!!!!

So, I decided today that my life is utter and complete chaos wrapped in a blanket of unknown. I have four kids, whom I love with every ounce of my soul. Being a mother is my greatest source of joy and pain. The pain part comes mostly from the fact that I have to find time to hold a full time job while caring for my kids. So here I am. 1 am pretending to work, logging hours so that I don't get another warning letter from human resources pointing out that I was 15 minutes short of my required hours and I will loose my benefits if I don't straighten up. The worst part is that life is in a constant state of flux. I know... I know...life is about change. Well then I have had about all the life change I can deal with. Just when I get a schedule down and all 6 of us (Brent my hubby included) going in the right direction, something happens to throw the whole plan into turmoil. Like for instance, I work insane hours, usually 4 am to 12pm. Brent drops the children off at their various places of learning in the morning around 8 am. I pick them up at lunch and we only have to pay a half day for Brit (the baby) to be in daycare. It is working beautifully, with the exception that I never sleep and am aging well before my age, but oh well. Can't have it all. Anyway, next school year my third child will be starting kindergarten. We are on year round school. If you don't know what that is....look it up under "ways school districts can torcher parents and make their lives really hard". I am sure you will find it on a google search. Anyway, year round students are on tracks that put them into and out of school on a regulated schedule spread over 12 months. We have been on track A for three years, but now it appears that track B will be our designated track. Interesting problem though. Kindergarten is half day. I need my student to be in morning kindergarten to accommodate our schedule. B track ( our new track for those of you so bored you can't keep up) is the only track that does not have a morning kindergarten. My life is again chaos trying to figure out how to make an afternoon kindergarten work. I just can't get things to come together. It is frustrating.

I am tired now. I think I will go take a nap. I wish I drank Coffee. I love coffee. It is so bad for you and I have been instructed that for the protection of my body I should not consume it, but I love it and nights like these remind me of how much I wish I didn't know that I love coffee....if you get my meaning.